I Want to Make Art

    In the midst of meditating on what we say to each other and working on a project for work I have started to think about collage and mixed media.

    In high school, my senior year, I made a beautiful mixed media collage.  The Possessor’s Wish.  I loved making that piece and if one person in high school or at that time had told me that mixed media collages were considered real art I would have gone straight into art.  I still would have pursued an education in science, but I would have started making and possibly selling art.  It felt so good and so right.

    And I have been thinking about that for several months now.  I think I want to do more of that.  I want to create more art.  Not just items intended to sell, but creations that are an amalgamation of a feeling.  I want to just experiment and see what happens.  I want to live.  And I want to feel.  And I want to help other people feel.

    Through this blog and my miniatures business I have managed to toy with the collage art through flat lays and GIMP.  But each creation has been for a very specific reason and created in a very short period of time.  The Possessor’s Wish was an extension of my poetry.  An attempt to take a feeling or a thought process and work it onto the canvas.

    I want to dabble.  I want to explore.  I want to make art for the sake of expressing myself.  I want to make art for the sake of communicating.  I want to start finishing my poems.  I want to finish my novel.  I feel so alive when I am creating and I haven’t nourished that.  I have listened to everyone else.

    Get a job.  Wait till you’re older, better, retired.  Stop wasting your time.  And a really unhealthy need for it all to be perfect.  Nothing is perfect.  That is an aspect of living in the physical world.  Nothing is ever perfect.  Art isn’t perfect and we will never be perfect.  We grow and learn and change.  Art is a way to keep doing that and document it.

    I want to make art.

P.S. After writing this I came across a video from a YouTuber I watch that was adjacent to what I talked about here.